[Sanji takes a deep breath, and tries to get the mental fuckery that is his mind together a little more before saying anything else.] We could die any day. Any of us. And there's no promise that we'll come back like Ace did. So if we can be happy, even for a little while, that's what matters.
[Sanji has lived with fear as a motivator for so much of his life. He's been raised by the best and worst of fathers, and both of them were unyielding in their ideas and that pushed him to a strange fetishization of heterosexuality and stereotypical alpha male behavior. So any time he's felt something that deviates from the ideas that he's grown up with, that have been pushed onto him both through pain and loving intentions, it makes him feel like a deviant.
But here, things are different. He's ended up in a situation he never thought was possible, ever. And he's already had to make adjustments for things that he never thought could be. He's seen so much that's mind blowing to him, and maybe it's okay for him to unclench a little and be supportive of his friends and kind to himself. If he ends up with a man someday, which scares him to think about a little, he'd want people to treat him like he's still a good person. Like he's still Sanji, even if his interests don't lie in the specific areas he's advertised loudly for years.
So he tilts his head, looks at Zoro without a hint of judgement in his expression, and decides to be the friend he deserves. Even if Zoro is an asshole.]
Oi. Marimo. If you've got someone like that in mind... You should go for it. I'll kick the hell out of them if they respond badly. And do the same for me if I-Fuck. [Yeah, can't say it directly yet. The words start up, but just won't come out.]
Zoro is really important to him even if he wants to kick him all the time
[Sanji has lived with fear as a motivator for so much of his life. He's been raised by the best and worst of fathers, and both of them were unyielding in their ideas and that pushed him to a strange fetishization of heterosexuality and stereotypical alpha male behavior. So any time he's felt something that deviates from the ideas that he's grown up with, that have been pushed onto him both through pain and loving intentions, it makes him feel like a deviant.
But here, things are different. He's ended up in a situation he never thought was possible, ever. And he's already had to make adjustments for things that he never thought could be. He's seen so much that's mind blowing to him, and maybe it's okay for him to unclench a little and be supportive of his friends and kind to himself. If he ends up with a man someday, which scares him to think about a little, he'd want people to treat him like he's still a good person. Like he's still Sanji, even if his interests don't lie in the specific areas he's advertised loudly for years.
So he tilts his head, looks at Zoro without a hint of judgement in his expression, and decides to be the friend he deserves. Even if Zoro is an asshole.]
Oi. Marimo. If you've got someone like that in mind... You should go for it. I'll kick the hell out of them if they respond badly. And do the same for me if I-Fuck. [Yeah, can't say it directly yet. The words start up, but just won't come out.]