new_world_dr | [VIDEO] And he has absolutely no idea.

[Well, Law can't help being different. Different life.]

Th-thank you. I. Feel as if I've said that already, but, that's fine.

[Entirely different, but as long as Law is alright now he's happy.]

It is fine! And you'll be alright, just let me know what I can do. Coming here is rough at first.

[Nod.]

I'll tell you if anything happens.

[Rosinante looks relieved at that, far more relaxed now. Law will be okay, he's grown and strong, he doesn't really need to be coddled. But Rosinante's surely going to do whatever he can to help him anyway.]

Do you have a place to stay? Funds? What about the Polar Tang? [Just because he's a little more relaxed about Law's welfare doesn't mean he's going to leave things as is.]

Stop it, Cora-san, I'm not a child---!

[Wait. Wait. This isn't Cora-san. Well. Not exactly. Trafalgar D. Water Law looks away suddenly, trying not to look unhappy, because that'd be stupid.]

I know, you're an adult, but this place can take people in without their belongings sometimes. And I know you're capable of fending for yourself, but you shouldn't have to. You've had to do that enough already.

[Rosinante purses his lips for a moment, and sighs. He doesn't know how to handle this Law, and he wants to help but he thinks he's just making him uncomfortable.]

I'm not upsetting you, am I?

What-- no, no, not at all?! To be honest, it's just, that thought, that you're not him, but. That's alright. From what you've said, Rosi, I'm going to meet him here, too, so, that's alright, in that case.

[Oh. Oh!]

I. I've said that wrong, haven't I? I'm saying all the wrong things today. I don't know why.

It's alright. You're fine, this world makes everything seem wrong. It's difficult to figure out what to say or do here. Especially when you just arrived. I just wanted to make sure that I wasn't pushing too far.

[He looks to Law fondly, not his Law, but he can see their similarities. Their power. Their struggles. And he's so glad that the scared and angry child from his world never had to grow up without him, or experience so much pain. This Law has a very different feel to him, and there's something amazing about how strongly different the two can be, for being in essence the same person.]

Is there anything else you want to ask? Anything at all?

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No, it's not - you've done nothing wrong. It's me. I don't know what I'm feeling. Stupid, I know. Because, this is simple, isn't? If. One forgets all the complicated parts. That is- see? Exactly.

Thank you. [Shakes his head.] I'll tell you, if there's anything. I promise. When I find myself here more. Thank you, I... You've helped. Which. You do know that if I was slightly more unconvinced, I'd have taken your heart out? Just. Making sure. Whether you knew.

[He gives him a critical look. Honestly, does no Corazon, does no Rosinante, ever, take care of himself? Good thing this man here has his own Law. Well. Probably a good thing? Though that would mean putting a lot of faith in himself. Er. Not quite himself.]

It's alright, you're fine. There's nothing stupid about this, about you. Don't be hard on yourself, once you adjust to this place you'll be fine.

[He just has the most adoring expression, because Law is Law, even if it's not the Law that he's with, and he really just wants the best for him and every version of him.

...Nope. Self-preservation is low on Rosinante's importance scale. He doesn't take very good care of himself.] I know, but it was worth the risk to see you, to make sure you were alright.

You're an idiot. Every you is an idiot. Utter moron! And loving you is stupid, and should be a crime, seeing how dangerous it is, so that makes me a fool, too, seeing as I love Cora-san like a father almost. Like he could be like a father to me. So I'm pretty stupid, too.

[He hasn't yet quite noticed what he said, yet, as he's speaking without really thinking, right now.]

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[Oh, Rosinante is trying hard not to look as crushed as he feels right now. He wanted to raise his Law as a son, he wanted to do what was right and take care of him, and after years in their messed up relationship he still struggles with this. With how his attempts were failures in anything other than what Law desired, and how his Law never saw him as a parental figure.

This, and Rosinante's long term guilt about it, was the basis of their worst and really only fight. And even now, it's still ripping at him inside. This one though, almost saw his Cora-san as a father, and that makes a world of painful difference.

Especially since this Law lost his Cora-san.

He is an idiot. He's aware of that.

He shudders a little, but the smile remains. A bit strained, perhaps but it's there none the less.]

I know. I'm so foolish, and I make silly blunders and get in the way. But I care so much, and I'd do anything to help, so please don't call yourself stupid, in any way. You're worth every risk, every single one of you.

[That strain-]

[Law looks guilty now.]

Cora-- uhm, Rosinante-san? Please, don't be angry, I just... I guess, also, I'm probably envious of your Law. Don't worry, I won't tell him that I am, if I ever meet him.

He probably doesn't know how lucky he is, and let's keep it that way.

[And now, Law smiles a little, with effort.]

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[When Law looks guilty, Rosinante makes a pained sound. No no no, that wasn't what he intended. He didn't mean to make him feel bad at all about anything.]

Law. I'm so sorry for being hurtful. It wasn't my intention. And I'm so sorry that you've had to suffer, it pains me to know that you've had to struggle so much. Any of you.

I really will help you find him. All of Dressrosa's airship fleets will be at your disposal, I'll have people searching the Networks and databases, whatever it is that I can do for you? It will be done. Without question.

[There's a pause after that, and Rosinante just looks at Law's face. Taking in a smile that he hasn't seen in ages. It's so different than the expressions that his Law makes...

And no matter what he promised his Law, he's never going to not feel quietly disgusted at himself, at least in his more clear moments.] I'm not sure that you should be envious of my Law. I've put a painful burden on him, an incredible load to suffer. I'm not like your Cora-san, I wish I was that person still. [If that person ever really existed. He's not sure what of his past was an act, and what was reality.]

[Law almost scowls, but stops himself.]

Why would you say that? I don't know what happened afterwords - many things can happen, not all of them through anybody's fault - don't you ever dare to forget that you're the man who's given m-- who's given Law hope. Don't tell me you don't get it, after all these years, or I'll call you a moron again. As many times as necessary. I---and him, er --- Law decided to try to keep being alive only thanks to you!

[He gives him a 'so now do you get it??' stare, or at least tries to.]

No matter what, that makes you the... hero? Doesn't quite sound right... Idol? I don't know. I've never had a chance to- an opportunity to - put this into words. But. No, no other words is necessary, because there's nobody in my life like you, so... that made you-- you, for me. And for him, I'm sure. That's - and of course you made mistakes, everybody makes mistakes, you have no idea how many I've made in my life, you'd be surprised! But that's not what matters, in the end. What matters is- what I said.

[He cuts himself off now, fast, because if he continued speaking, right now, he'd say I don't know about anybody else, but I'd suffer for Cora-san, gladly, any day. But that's - that's not what any Corazon, Rosinante, whatever, wants to hear, surely, so Trafalgar Law doesn't say it, only thinks, while trying to forbid himself from crying any time soon.]

[Instead, he scoffs a bit. Was Cora-san always this dense? Yes. Yes, he was, Law remembers that well. And now in his eyes one can see that he might burst into tears or into laughter any second now, not sure which.

You're wonderful, Law. I tried so hard, I really did. I wanted to do things right, but I kept failing. But I did try, I kept trying and I still try. And I wanted you to be alright and happy. I did whatever my Law wanted, anything he wanted, but I still feel like I failed him sometimes.

[Rosinante does start crying at that, he doesn't mean to, and he absolutely doesn't intent to show such weakness in front of Law but he can't help it. Years of shaking guilt come to the surface, and gratitude, even this Law who doesn't know how sick he is cares about him and thinks that he's good. That his levels upon levels of stacking sins are mistakes.

And this time, he really does try to hug him and hold him. He doesn't care, this Law needs a good hug and it doesn't matter if he isn't his Cora-san or not. Sometimes you make do in life, and you take care of what's in front of you first.

And Law is here, from a different world or no, but he's Law and perfect and worthy of all of the love and attention.

...Just not the same kind of love and attention as his Law.]

[Law hugs back, with no hesitation. Rosinante might not be Cora-san, exactly, just like he's not exactly this one's Law, but, so what? He's a man who'd do all the things Cora-san's done, isn't he? So. No hesitation in the hug.

And, from all he's said, he has many, many problems, of what kind, Law's not sure, but--]

Rosinante. Listen. If you're ever in trouble, call me and I'll be there. I swear. So, promise me.

[Of course, Law doesn't say what kind of trouble, so Rosinante, being who he is, can probably be in trouble and then say it wasn't really trouble, but Law hasn't thought of that yet.]

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I will. I promise! We can help each other here.

[He has absolutely no intentions of ever calling upon him casually, or putting him at risk. It's not Law's place to protect him, not Law's place to keep him safe, and he doesn't want to cause him any more trouble than he has to.

But with how sick he is, how traumatized his own mind has become, he might have to beg for help someday. But for now, he just snuggles Law for a moment, before letting go. Rosinante won't cling to him, not with how dirty he is and what blood is on his hands, he killed so much good in Law and he's hurt so many people, but he can't help but to enjoy the contact while it lasted.]

Thank you. I'll hold you to that promise, you can't get rid of me. Especially if your life's ever threatened.

[Law grins. He only lets go when he senses Rosinante wants to let go, and not a second earlier.]

You're so good to me. Thank you, Law.

[He looks him over once more, trying to take in the differences between his Law and this one. It's amazing how they can be so similar and so different at the same time. Their expressions are so different, the way they speak is similar but still worlds apart. It's surreal and it has him missing his husband even more.] You're so different than I'm used to. But it's nice. You really grew up into an impressive young man. Your Cora-san will be so pleased when he meets you again, he won't be able to get over how healthy and powerful you look!

That Cora-san you've mentioned, he really is the one who--

--whom I know? He must be.

[The one who's given me life, at the cost of his own, he doesn't say, but maybe his gaze does. The one who's proven, impossibly, that maybe the world isn't made only of evil. My Cora-san.]

I'll meet him soon! I. I'll try not to cry. I want him to know I'm happy. How-- how can I do that? I want him to know, beyond doubt, that he's important to me. But I don't want him to know how much I've missed him. Because what if that upsets him? He's too kind. I--

Never mind. Why am I asking you? I don't want to upset you, either.

I think he is! I want him to be, at least. I want you to be reunited, so you can both be happy again. [Honestly, right now his counterpart's happiness or lack thereof is the last thing on his mind. They're all damaged and sinful, they can all suffer for what they've done or might do. But Law deserves happiness, all of the happiness, and he might not be able to feel that entirely without his Cora-san there.]

He won't be upset if you cry! I promise. He'll be so happy to see you, Law I'm so happy to see you that it hurts and I know you're not my Law. So how much happier will he be, to see you like this?

You'll be fine!

He won't be upset if I react so - so... Childishly? Alright. Okay. You'd know.

[Squeezes Rosinante's hand gently. It's selfish. It's Law once more reassuring himself that he's not having a strangely blissful dream.]

You'd know, seeing as [he smirks] he's another you. So, I'll trust in that. I just don't want to hurt Cora-san. Ever.

Of course not. He'll never be upset about something like that.

[Rosinante runs his hands over Law's, he has innate focus on comforting and making Law happy, and it extends to this Law within reason. It does seem like an odd dream, somehow.]

You won't hurt him. As long as you're healthy and alive, anything and everything is alright. He'll do whatever he can for you.

[VIDEO] And he has absolutely no idea.

<3 Rosi

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wow, thanks! :D I'll look. Meanwhile, Law's just still processing 'Corazon, but not his' situation.

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Law: /meets two Corazons today. Is a mess. :)

Poor thing, he's had a lot to deal with today

Yeah, but he wouldn't give that away for anything :)

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